Michelle Williams is opening up about her battle with depression in her new memoir, “Checking In: How Getting Real About Depression Saved My Life–and Can Save Yours.”
Williams, who is best known for being a member of the popular girl group Destiny’s Child, says that she was first diagnosed with depression when she was just 17 years old.
The singer has been very open about her struggles with depression in the past, and says that she decided to write a memoir about it in order to help others who may be struggling with the same thing.
“I wanted to write this book because I wanted other people who are dealing with depression to know that they’re not alone,” Williams said. “I wanted them to know that there’s hope, and that it is possible to overcome the darkness.”
Williams says that she has now been living free of depression for several years, but still deals with occasional setbacks now and then.
“Having depression only once in your life doesn’t make you an expert on it,” Williams said. “But having it, learning about it, living through it, learning how to get out of the hole, and then sharing what you’ve learned with others? That does make you an expert.”
“I Didn’t Want to Die”
“There were times, I swear to God, I didn’t want to die but wanted the pain to stop,” Williams says in her memoir. “I now know that these are two very different things.”
Williams is now 42 years old with three children and has been married twice. She is currently promoting her book which details how depression has affected her life.
“I was extremely sad to the point of feeling nothing at all,” she says. “My heart ached so much I wanted to rip it out.”
“I Wasn’t Interested in Anything”
Williams details that depression made her push away family and friends, and that she wasn’t interested in anything.
She also says that depression played a role in her being sexually abused by a family member at the age of 7 and in an attempted suicide in 2013.
“She Had No Control Over Her Feelings”
One of the most difficult parts for Williams was that she felt no one understood what she went through.
In the book, Williams says that doctors said she couldn’t be diagnosed because “she was too young” and “had no control over her feelings.”
The memoir is called “Checking In,” which Williams says describes an essential part of being me.
She adds that in order to get better, it’s important to “check in” with yourself.
“I Needed a Detox from the World”
In addition to scientific treatment, Williams says that her faith helped her through depression.
She also mentions that she needed time away from the world for self-care and to work towards getting better.
Today, Williams is working on staying healthy and helping others to get better.
“Checking In” is available on Amazon.com.